$teauA said:
You know I still have a year left but sometimes I think about how when I finish highschool I'm gonna lose all the great friends that I have made in the past 4 years and I guess it hasn't really hit me yet, graduation will probably be the saddest day for me
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I graduated the second of June. I, like you, expected graduation to be a very sad day for me. However, they make you sit through a long program, in hot weather. By the time it is done, you just want to get the hell out of there as fast as possible. I was more worried about how I was going to escape my family to go party, then I was about people leaving 3 months from that moment. After the first week, I was still kind of amazed that how poorly I had done in all my classes no longer an issue, I was going to college. It is kind of refreshing for the first two months to know you have started a new chapter in your life, a clean sheet of paper.
Now though, I miss my routine.By now, I would be cursing about how much I hate doing sprints 3 times a day, or about how my summer ended 3 weeks early because of pre-season. Now though, I really miss it. I miss knowing where I was going to go the first day of school, I miss not having to get in a car just to go from Math to Chemistry. All and all, I miss having a direction.
I am not worried about friends, because no matter how much of a loser you are, you will always manage to make at least one friend. But what bothers me is the fact that I don't know which road to take. I don't like my major and I don't have any in mind. Frankly I am not sure if I am going to, nor if I even want to spend most of my time in study(=not failing).
Writing a new chapter in your life is good and bad, good because the papers are blank....but bad because of the same reason.
btw, Kader, I am going to East Stroudsburg Uni. I may go on to Penn State after two years, but I am not sure.