that false hope one was good, I actually thought of that before.
EDIT: But I don't want her to cry.
Even tho I shed so many tears over her, I can't do it. My heart can't do it.
EDIT Numer Zwei: I think that what it was, it was that I sincerely appreciated her friendship. I had these feelings for her because she was just there, something that I never had before. It's like I felt so desperate, and only want one gril, (Le Grill? what the hell is Le Grill!
) that I felt kind of loyal to her, and I didn't want to come onto/hit on her because I didn't want to disrespect her. So I could only give little hints and even then I was afraid that she would figure it out and then start to resent me for it. I didn't know whether to be direct or indirect, attack or defend, go left or right. Goddamn it. (:/)
EDIT Numer Drei: Another thing; I have this fear of rejection. No matter what I do it never seems to work. Every time I think I get close to a girl there's always something holding me back. I always seem to be lacking something. No matter how long I know a girl, my feelings don't have any say. They don't count for f*ck all. I don't want to regret telling her my feelings, because it was bad enough as it was not telling her for so long.