How is everybody doing?

[Yossarian]

Hope all is well, my good men.


Aside from the girl of my dreams, the only one that I've unquestionably and earnestly loved walking out on me roughly a month ago, I'm blessed.


I get a genuinely warm feeling seeing quite a few of the regulars still posting here. Some of my most engaging and entertaining internet interactions occurred on this message board.

 

[Jaboldinho]

Holy ****.

 

[Sir Calumn]

Hope all is well, my good men.


Aside from the girl of my dreams, the only one that I've unquestionably and earnestly loved walking out on me roughly a month ago, I'm blessed.


I get a genuinely warm feeling seeing quite a few of the regulars still posting here. Some of my most engaging and entertaining internet interactions occurred on this message board.

I insist you tell us absolutely everything that has happened to you in the last three years in extensive and explicit detail.

And also, you know which onomatopoeic word used for the expression of laughter I really want to hear

 

[yoyo913]

We want you back Yoss.

We will fill the empty hole the girl left.

 

[MaestroZidane]

Or I'm sure someone here will be more than happy to let you fill their empty hole...





very happy to see you Yoss... We do want you back. And I agree with Sir Calumn, please feel free to explain all you've done in the past three years, no matter how dirty it is.

 

[Yossarian]

I insist you tell us absolutely everything that has happened to you in the last three years in extensive and explicit detail.

And also, you know which onomatopoeic word used for the expression of laughter I really want to hear

the tranny laugh? hurhurhurhur. I still do that in real life, especially in the company of benders and other gender challenged folk who I've had the pleasure of partying with at gay pride week gatherings.


The last three yrs have been very tumultuous and heart-attack inducingly frantic, but also extremely rewarding personally, and, to a degree, financially as well. For the first 23-24yrs of my life, I went almost entirely unscathed when it came to any kind of tragedy. I led a sheltered and spoiled existence, and then about two yrs ago, I had two of my favourite uncles die in succession. One was pulverized by a speeding drunkard and the other succumbed to an unforeseen brain aneurysm. Both in their early 40s and genuinely good human beings. Then after many years of being a manic depressive, one of my closest cousins jumped off the 18th floor of her apartment complex. I loved her unconditionally and always looked up to her even though we were the same age. She was pretty, awe-inspiringly intelligent and a magnetic force personality wise when she was up to it, but when she got into that intensely dark and atrociously bleak place, there was no way of reaching her. The toll those tragedies took on my mother....probably caused her to age a decade in the span of a year and half. She's just not the same effervescent, optimistic person anymore. And that ruined me emotionally for quite a while....just seeing her whither away both physically and emotionally......


Aside from those string of devastating occurrences, I've matured a sh!t ton and have been humbled considerably by moments of undeniable HELL and the sort of failures that you don't even see coming, you know? With the assistance of mushrooms and the sacred plant, I'm no longer the overly tense, testosterone soaked c/unt that I used to be. I'm working more diligently towards being a loving, considerate and appreciative person. I'm working towards being more introspective and strengthening my will and ability to focus. And in order to accomplish this, I've had to step outside of my comfortable social circle and patterns of behaviour. It's so easy and soothing to live a comfortable lie day in and day out, isn't it? In order to break from this hindering and constraining way of life, I've been blessed to be able to travel extensively over the last three yrs. From Alaska to Algeria, I've had the most intensely passionate, fulfilling experiences and impactful moments of my 27yr career on this planet. I'm not that much wiser or more insightful. in fact, I've never felt dumber. I'm just thankful that I'm less hyper competitive, less muddled and filled with confusion and destructive nonsense....there aren't many things worse than when you come to the irrefutable conclusion that you've been actively and aggressively conspiring against yourself and have been shackled to your fears and nagging doubts.


As it stands, I've got a decent job as a research coordinator for a marketing firm. I've been sharing a condo with one of my best friends from high school for the past couple of yrs and I've managed to live considerably below my means and save up. I took a girl that I'd been seeing on a semi-serious basis to my brother's wedding (major blunder) last month....as a gesture of my fondness for her I suppose. And it really backfired on me in such a hideous manner that I guess I was just too stoned to even fathom. She got really emotional during the course of the wedding and I just interpreted that as normal chick/human reaction to such unabashed display of affection. But she became very melancholic and somewhat erratic when we got back home. I simply asked why she was overcome by all this gloom and distress and she point blank asked me why that couldn't be us? She said that she was tired of being in vague and undefined relationships and wanted to settle down for real (she recently turned 29) She claimed that all I was doing was eating into her future with no discernable goal or objective for "our" future. I was staggered by her legit complaints and just froze. I didn't have a witty or somewhat funny response to lighten the mood. I couldn't manufacture a single utterance to reassure and comfort her...I just choked in the moment and ended up coming off as an indifferent and unconcerned c/unt. Needless to say, she has barely spoken to me in the last month or so. I love her, or so I think. But a mortgage and children? I probably just lost out on the love of my life simply because I'm an infantile, selfish coward....



I apologize if that was too long and boring, brothers. I realize that to some of you, that it probably comes off as being a stoner's woe-is-me meanderings and half-baked self-explorations but that's just where I'm at right now in life.


I could've better encapsulated the last three yrs of my life with this glib remark...."lost some, ate some, smoked some, drank some, f/ucked some and got f/ucked by some"


To reiterate my sentiments from the previous post. I sincerely hope that you'r all doing well.....I really miss the lot of youse. This place feels a lot like home. I just get this incredibly good and comfortable feeling everytime that I log back on,

 

[Back Door Skip]

Wow, Yoss!!! Great to hear from you. Always loved reading your posts. You seem to be well in tune with your feelings and it shows in your writing. (no homo unless that works for you )


Sorry to hear about the loss of loved ones. I've been very blessed in that department and should be a lot more appreciative of the fact.


Hope you stick around!

 

[King]

Yea, welcome back Yoss!!

And like you said, life is full of ****! There are a thousand things that goes wrong and only one that goes the way you want... You just have to close your eyes and walk through that pile of **** and hope for the best...

 

[Yossarian]

Holy ****.

We want you back Yoss.

We will fill the empty hole the girl left.

Or I'm sure someone here will be more than happy to let you fill their empty hole...





very happy to see you Yoss... We do want you back. And I agree with Sir Calumn, please feel free to explain all you've done in the past three years, no matter how dirty it is.

I genuinely love you guys


oh btw, Maestro.....F/UCK THE DOYERS!!! A's ALL THE WAY!!



Horatiu. I miss the masterpiece sigs you used design for me, and this as well.....

http://www.soccergaming.com/forums/showthread.php?t=145624

 

[Yossarian]

Wow, Yoss!!! Great to hear from you. Always loved reading your posts. You seem to be well in tune with your feelings and it shows in your writing. (no homo unless that works for you )


Sorry to hear about the loss of loved ones. I've been very blessed in that department and should be a lot more appreciative of the fact.


Hope you stick around!

Yea, welcome back Yoss!!

And like you said, life is full of ****! There are a thousand things that goes wrong and only one that goes the way you want... You just have to close your eyes and walk through that pile of **** and hope for the best...

really appreciate the kind, supportive words, my good men. I'm touched that you even remotely remember me.


My dad recently told me in his uniquely sobering, yet encouraging way, that 27 isn't that far from 40. I panicked initially and had all sorts of negative and self-crippling thoughts. But now I use it as fuel, as motivation to get sh!t done and to avoid bad karmic momentums that leech your most precious resource (time) away from you. I don't want to be in constant flight mode from my f.uckups. I don't want to be in a perpetual state of waiting for bad sh!t to occur. I wanna steer clear of emotional vampires and time dominator types...you know those f/ucking assholes that I'm referring to. And lastly. I've just gotta love more...seriously. You always don't have to feel love in order to intimate and express love.

I've allowed myself the undeserved luxury of being a c/unt far too often, man. That has to f/ucking change immediately

 

[ShiftyPowers]

I'm going to be 29 and am still an amazing ****. But welcome back buddy.

 

[Yossarian]

thank you, Nimz. You were always an awesome dude to shoot the sh!t with on just about any topic...fond memories, my good man!!

 

[MaestroZidane]

Nothing wrong if you go after that one girl and propose to her, just a thought.

And sorry to hear about what you have gone thru. But glad to hear that you have been able to bounce back up from it all.

 

[Yossarian]

Nothing wrong if you go after that one girl and propose to her, just a thought.

And sorry to hear about what you have gone thru. But glad to hear that you have been able to bounce back up from it all.

appreciate the kind thoughts, my good man.


The old me has had these absurd fantasies of just going over to her place, knocking down her door and dicking her down until she lets go of her
cancerous grudge for me. But the rational and partial sane side of me is like "Let it go. You've done irrevocable damage, *****."


It wasn't supposed to be this stressful, complicated and painful. She was the one who set strict parameters when we first started hookin up. We weren't suppose to get "too" attached, I was not to question her about the other guys she was seeing and what she did with her time when she wasn't with me. We couldn't spend at each other's places more than a couple nights at a time. We only adhered to that framework for only like a couple of weeks before I started to subtly inquire about the other dudes she was banging and how my caveman f/ucking style compared to theirs and her the same, you know? And then all of a sudden, she was spending most weekends at my place and we were both throwing 'I love you" around carelessly.



A lot of folks from my graduating class in high school have partnered up and are now married and engaged in that real journey of life, you know what I mean? They've planned out their immediate and distant future earnestly and are raising children. I've been to seven weddings in the last two years alone involving either high school or university friends.


I've convinced myself that I'll be ready mentally in five years. That's my plan.



This has been very therapeutic, brothers....thank you

 

[ShiftyPowers]

Marriage is a scam in 2012, IMO. I don't know a single divorced guy who is glad he got married. Married guys are liars, but also mostly unhappy with the arrangement.

 

[Yossarian]

SAD BUT TRUEEEE. I think close to half the children born today are conceived out of wedlock. There are so many different forms of families now a days. Whether they're any less successful or fulfilling.....I don't f/ucking know, my good man.


Most of us are lying, rage fueled, greedy c/unts, that's for sure.

 

[Mandieta6]

Please keep posting Yoss.

 

[Seán D]

Welcome back Yoss

Nobody can fill the Yoss shaped hole in your absence.

 

[Mutt]

I'm most likely useless at Yahoo Pool now...

 

[Hans]

We want you back Yoss.

We will fill the empty hole the girl left.

There was a girl????

Oh, and welcome back Yoss. Jesus ******* Christ you're funny.